The New Years is upon us once again. People making New Years resolutions of how they can hopefully improve their lives, get skinny, become more successful, and live out lifelong dreams. I myself used to be one of those people who made New Years resolutions and for the most part would not stick to them later on down the road for many reasons that I have given myself permission not to post. New Years resolutions usually fade away as life gets in the way with all of it’s hectic rushing.
I don’t make a list of resolutions anymore. My goal everyday is to become a better person than I was the day before. I guess I make goals. People seem to see goals as something positive where they are so used to people not following through on resolutions. I do have a daily list of things that I write down of things I want to accomplish for the day. I never thought it would be beneficial to write down everything I wanted to do that day, from brushing my teeth, to a shower, to vitamins and daily errands but I get that wonderful feeling of accomplishment when I do complete my list. A very wise person and I were having a conversation once, and she said that she writes down what she wants to do today and explained why she did it. We conversed about Habakkuk 2:2 where the Lord said to write the vision down so whoever reads it can run with it. I thought what a brilliant idea! I had never been much of a list maker and I never saw myself writing a list of every single thing I did everyday but it works. There have been days where I may forget to take my 4 o’clock meds, or my vitamins, or simply going to Kroger on Senior citizen day to get the 5% discount.
I do have a couple of things I have become lax to and want to do a better job at, such as my volunteer work at the hospital and taking better control of my health by exercising and eating healthy, and getting back to following my daily list (the latter was a serious joke). In the past 4 years, I have slowly began adding things into my diet that was a definite no-no for me. I have slowly began to weed them out of my diet. Things such as breaded food, diet soda, no sugar added ice cream, cheese, mayo etc. etc. etc. So, my goal is to delete these things out of my life. When I eat them I feel horrible and I am at my breaking point. At one point in my life I was in control of my eating and I vowed that I would never turn back but I failed. So, it is time to buckle up for the long haul. I love the feeling of working out, sweating, burning calories, and watching my clothes get bigger as I shrink.
That was me in 1998. It is hard to believe that I had let myself go so much. I was nearing 400 pounds but didn’t know how to take control. It wasn’t until around 2007 that I started to see things in a different perspective. I started walking with a friend who had already lost weight. I could barely walk 1 mile and that was it for me. Eventually I began to walk 3 miles a day plus a daily visit to the gym. For the first time in my whole entire life did I feel as though I some control in my life. I was happy for the first time in my life. For the next 2 years, I would go on to lose 130 pounds. I had not been that size since middle school. Then life happened, I got married and lost control a tiny bit at a time. I put on 50 pounds (it was then I found out that I had hypothyroidism with no symptoms except that I gained some weight but it was my fault because I stopped working out so much and was slowly adding crappy foods in my diet that I should not have been eating. Well, it has been 4 years and I am 15 pounds shy of my weight when I met Jason so….it is time to get my head, heart, and mind back in the game.
Many people asked me how I lost the weight. Honestly, something in me just clicked. I had heard people say that all of my life and I wished so bad that click would happen inside of me. Well, it did. But while I worked out, I repeated scripture on health, healing, and God’s promises for me. Hanging out with healthy minded people helped out tremendously. It is amazing how walking with someone or going to the gym with someone can actually make the workouts fun.
This was me in 2012. I still had some work to day but was far from the person I was in 1998. I want to get back to that place of working out every single day (except Sunday) and eating healthy. I know I can do it, I just have to be faithful. So, no real New Years resolutions but to become a better person than I was this year. I will be 40 in January. I guess it has not hit me yet that I will be 40. I am okay with it I suppose. I do want to be a smoking hot 45 year old though, which means I will have something awesome to look forward to.
I do wish you and yours a very Happy New Year.